国庆夜

已经忘了要写什么了,
一个星期没有上传的部落格,
想要写些什么,
却不知从何下笔...

听了些故事,
看了些心情;
听了些音乐,
看了些电视;
凌晨三点了....
还是决定下线了...

重整了情绪,

有人,
为了自己的利益不顾一切,
设下了圈套骗了上百个人...
有人,
在想见的时候见不到想见的人,
只能把心愿留给未知的明天...
有人,
在寂寞孤独的夜想出外散散心,
却被车匙没电而乖乖呆在家整夜...
有人,
为她msn连接不好而懊恼,
无缘无故的短线影响了她心情...
有人,
为她的故事找聆听者,
希望能信任的听众此时此刻出现...

国庆的一天,
和以往一样,
我还是置身之外,
看着窗外的烟火,
还是一样的耀眼...
可是今晚人们的心情,
却给这闪亮火花蒙了一层黑暗...

伴着音乐,
今晚又是熬夜的一晚...
已经连续性的严重熬夜了,
整个人有点游魂的感觉,
意志却顽强的要写完这篇心情...


ps* 谢谢有送我礼物或是和送我生日歌的朋友哦... yling,steph,rachel,alex,小明,......etc..谢谢你们哦 ^^


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It had been week since my last post,
the blog,
start becoming so strange to me,
there is words to write,
but there is no way to start...

tonight,
i heard some real story,
i seen some frame of mind;
i heard some music,
with the tv programmes...

Time clocking down fastly,
3am aproaching sooner,
finally decided 2 off9....
and re-packed all the mood and feels...

there is someone,
cz of own benifits and selfishly,
make a hole and let hundred and more peaple jump inside...

there is someone,
cant see somebody he wan to see when he is so desperate to do so,
only can leave the desire to the unknown tomorrow...

there is someone,
lies between loneliness and solitary at nite,
due to the outcome of car key no battery...

there is someone,
headache and fed up with her msn,
the unreasonable bad line had influence her mood whole nite...

there is someone,
finding a listener for her own story,
and hopefully there will be trustworthly audience at there for her....

31 of august,
just as usual,
is Merdeka day,
just as usual,
there is still no events for me at so memorable day,
just as usual,
the fireworks still so dazzle...
there is an only unusual tonight,
the bad mood and feel of people,
had cover up the shine firecracker with a layer of dark...

With music on my side,
tonight...still stay up late,
it already had been many continuous days,
never had a nicely early sleeping time,
Blur blur in my closing eyes,
at last also lose to my tenacious will,which want me to finish off this feeling blog.


ps* thx u all for those wh had gift me present or present me with bday songs...yling,steph,rachel,alex,xiao ming.....etc.....thx u all o ^^

"星"辰 贰

在一个睡不到三小时的凌晨,
思想还在为昨晚的数学而懊恼,
对一个当惯夜猫族的我,
要早睡早醒还真的有些难度...

幸好,
有人愿意四点半把我挖醒,
为了实现N天前的约定,
最后还是带着一双熊猫眼出门了...















可惜老天不做美,
让雨的旋律一直在播放...
星星...
因为怕冷而躲起来了...
日出...
也被乌云批上衣服了...
雨...
一直哭个不停...
海水...
也一直随着雨咆哮着...

所有的计划都被撤消,
所有的期待都被熄灭,
剩下的...
就只有两颗失落的心...

虽然如此,
一份突如其来的礼物却点亮了心情,
那...
是一份我收过最特别的礼物...
它,
不昂贵...
也不漂亮...
只是,
就是喜欢它说不出的特别 ^^







































写下的笔迹,
许下的心愿,
是否...
会随海漂流到达实现的那一天呢??

看着它越走越远,
我不懂...
靠岸的旅程还有多久,
也不懂停泊的港口还有多远,
只希望,
它能帮我把快乐和祝福送往每个经过的角落...
















ps * 谢谢早上陪我的小虫, 虽然那木板还是那么的可怕...


这次的假期,
很遗憾的没法和许多朋友聚会,
尤其是淑容妈咪和恩旋爸彼...
却依然收到他们的祝福和礼物...
谢谢你们哦...
我正需要它 ^^


















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Last nite only slept around 3 hours,
while all my mind still thinking of last nite maths,
and for a nite cat like me,
wanted to wake up at 4.30am really is a tough mission...

Luckily,
my fren willing to wake me up at d morning.
To achieve my promises N days ago,
at last i went out with my panda eyes @_@
















When there is a wish,
There always a hurdle...
the melody of rain keeps playing non-stop...
Stars...
started to feel cold and hided...
Sunrise...
also been clothed by the black clouds...
Rain...
crying without any reason...
and the Sea...
also follow the rain roaring...

All the plans had to be cancel,
all the expectation had been extinguish,
and the two disappointed heart,
is what had left for us..

The time pass by,
the surprise present comes and lighted the feeling,
that...
is a special present i had ever receive...
It nt expensive,
it also not so pretty as well,
just,
i like it and the special is hard to voice out...







































The written words,
the wishing made,
izzit...
can carried by the sea until the day it comes true??

With the help of the sea,
It goes more far from time to time,
i dunno...
tat its journey will lasts how long,
i not sure....
tat its harbor still how far to reach,
just...hoped that,
it will help me bring the happiness and blessing to all the places it went through...
















ps* thx for that bug that accompany me at the morning,althought that plank are so scary



this holiday will end soon,
there is a regret in it that many frens cant gather around,
especially shu rong mummy and eng shyuan pappy...
but i had received their warmest regards and present...
thx u guys
i really nid it ^^

"星"辰

19/8/2008

纳闷的假期,
如常的迟醒;
一样的早上,
相同的地点;
坐在电脑前的我,
仍在探索吉他的奥妙,
唯一和昨天不一样的...
就只有少了孤单的雨...

不过,
当太阳快要下山的那一刻,
我重见光明的时刻也来了...

一辆小小的克力杀,
6707的幸运号码,
不仅把我从无聊的黑洞中救起,
而且,
还把我载到熟悉的老地方...

距离上一次踏进,
已经好久好久了,
五个人,
拿了比较大的房间,
以久违的心情,
开始了今晚的故事...

红盒子的歌还是如常的有加新,
水还是那么的普通,
蛋糕还是一样那么可口... ^^
只是今晚的自助餐意外的比以往好吃...

由于配合奥林匹克,
红盒子的夜游戏也提早开始了,
幸运的朋友,
还得了三个小小的礼物...

华山论"喉"了几个小时后,
影幕的歌曲突然被关掉了...
再还没来得及回过神来的那一秒,
蛋糕已慢慢的出现在眼前,
生日歌也已在空气盘旋了...


















此时此刻,
除了感动...
还是感动...












































今年...
比预料中早..
却比预料中开心...

谢谢你们八小时的歌喉和礼物哦...
我都很喜欢 ^^
谢谢哦...

ps* 真正的生日日期还没到噢...


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19/8/2008

Still the same bore holiday,
still wake up late as usual,
the same room again in the same morning...
There is same laptop in front of me,
which trying to access the journey to the guitar world...
All yesterday scene continue shown today,
the only thing that left behind,
is the sadness rain...

But,
when the sunset,
its totally a brand new day for me..

Kelisa is coming,
with the lucky number 6707,
It not only save me from the dark bored hole,
and also drive me to the most familiar place...


Its been long long time ago since last time visit here,
and after taken a bigger room,
with the same five people,
the story of night finally start,
with all hold different feeling...

Redbox's song still updates as usual,
Drinks still normal as last time,
Cakes still so delicious among all,
and,
the buffet tonight are surprisingly nicer than all time...

Due to olympic fever at the moment,
the games inside redbox had started earlier,
which oftenly only held at late night...
my fren,
with the lucky shine all around,
had won 3 small prizes...

After few hours later,
the screen inside room suddenly been cut off,
while i still wondering what had happen,
the cake already brought in without any hesitated,
the bday song clearly fulfil all the spaces between the air...
















The moments,
The feels,
beside touch...
still touch...













































this year,
is earlier than expected...
but is more happy than expected...

thx u guys for all the things,
no matter yours eight hours voice inside the room,
or yours presents,
I really appreciate and like it...
thx o..
^^

ps* real bday still have week to go...

雨的心情

假期的第四天,
在家也第四天...

我的假期到底怎么了,
以往一直在假期外出的时期,
如今却懒惰动了...

原本今天打算要去和以前公司的同事用午餐的,
可是,
一场浩大的倾盆大雨不止把这午餐给吹走,
而且,
还阻止了原本打算去探营的我...














已经好几个星期没有风雨交加过了,
今天的这一切都来得那么突然..
没有前兆的大雨,
仿佛...
告诉我...
要我继续呆在家里...

灰色的天空,
连绵不断的雨;
冷淡的街,
寥寥无几的行人;
安静的小路,
还有一成不变的老屋...
好像,
已经过了很久,
我没向窗外眺望了....

"听雨的声音,
像悲伤的歌曲,
滂沱大雨竟如此的孤寂...
我陪雨哭泣雨却还不肯停
寂寞的人才懂雨的心情
雨反复唱着熟悉旋律
用悲伤的情绪
听雨的声音仿佛谁在哭泣..."

这首歌...
这旋律...
仿佛成为了最好的背景音乐...

悲伤的雨,
是否
在哭过了以后,
一切都会天晴呢...
悲伤的心情,
是否
在事过境迁后,
记忆就会模糊呢...

雨...
何时才停...
伤...
何时能痊愈...

没有人,
能有答案...

是彩虹...
因为它的出现,
雨...
显得有意义...
也因为雨的悲,
衬托了彩虹的美...

曾受过的伤,
请别怕去跨越...
因为,
在雨后
总会有一道最美的彩虹..
在为你守候着..
等待为你划出另一道更美丽的风景..

朋友,
你
看见彩虹了吗??





















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today,
is the 4th day of my school holiday...
and,
is also my 4th days stay at house..

i dunno what had happen to my holiday,
or maybe myself,
always hanging out in the past while holiday,
but now...
become more lazier n lazier...

originally plan to go out have a lunch with my x-colleague today,
but at last,
rain told me everythings...
it not only block me for my lunch,
and also make me cant go to visit my x-society camp..














Its been long time since last heavy rain occured,
and it just comes so sudden,
without any omen...
seems like it wanna stay at home today again..

With the rain falling non-stop,
the sky is so grey,
and it already started become more and more towards black...
the amount of pedestrian,
had make the road become silence...
and the old houses,
are all stay same as the past with the raindrops..
I realise that,
already long long time I did not take the view from the my windows...

"听雨的声音,
像悲伤的歌曲,
滂沱大雨竟如此的孤寂...
我陪雨哭泣雨却还不肯停
寂寞的人才懂雨的心情
雨反复唱着熟悉旋律
用悲伤的情绪
听雨的声音仿佛谁在哭泣..."

the song...
the music...
already become background music without any sense..

the sadness rain,
crying non stop since morning...
izzit..
after the wind and rain,
there would be a brand new day....??

the broken heart,
izzit..
with the time passing through,
memory will become fuzzy....??

rain...
when only can stop...
pain...
when only can recover...

no one,
got the answer...


Is rainbow...
with the appear of rainbow,
rain..
become meaningful..
oppositely,
because sadness of the rain,
rainbow become prettier...

The pain gainned,
The damaged heart,
pls dont be afraid to overcome it..
because,
there will be rainbow after rain,
it always there for you..
waiting you to draw another nice sceney...

frens,
there is a rainbow...
did you saw it ??
=)

太多的太多

想学的东西太多了, 可是资金却少的可怜;
学习的机会太多了, 可是时间却隔阻了一切;
功课也越来越多了, 可是会解答的却越来越少;
教课越来越远了, 可是记忆却还在原地踏步...

最近,
想做的东西实在太多了,

我想要读书, 好让自己能应付即将要来临的考试,
不让一个学期的烂成绩拖累了以后的总平均;

我想要学游泳, 好让自己多一个娱乐,
毕竟学了总不会白费的,
而且如今天时地利人和,
有好的设备及朋友的教导,
不学就太不应该了;

我想要练乒乓, 好让自己有机会MASUM,
加上乒乓是我一直以来的较在行的运动,
荒废了简直就是对不起过去的努力与汗水;

我想要加入歌唱, 让自己有贡献的余地,
毕竟爱好永远都无法割舍的;

我想要假如游子吟, 好让自己有机会学习乐器,
梦想有一天自弹自唱的自己,
再没机会接触的童年,
二十岁的我再不学就太迟了;

我想要谈恋爱, 单身了那么久了,
加上看了紫色苹果园的文章,
再怎样也不是那么好受吧...

很多很多...
想做的事情都堆满了脑海...
纵然如此,
可是,
我始终还看不到通往完成的那一段路...

30 / 7 / 2008

大学校园里 第二度下笔
却与首次的感觉天渊之别
疯狂的欢笑 结群的游伴
顿时间飞逝而去
换来的
却是繁重的课业
释重的功课 深奥的数学
已渐渐地把我逼的透不过气来
或许并非不是我的成绩不够好
而
只是在一个属于强者的场所里
压力无形间的形成在最差的那个我
或许
放松一点会比较好吧
但
我无法想象一旦松解开了以后
我还有没有能力去追回
所以
才一直努力不懈
不让自己有第二次后悔的机会

一直想拥有的校园生活
一直想要体验的生涯
原来
并非犹如脑海般里的画面
也并非如外人看到的简单
只是
我从不后悔我做的选择
因为
这将是一种新生活 新挑战
但一切再次从零开始
没有人在乎我的过去
新一页的里程碑将从中下笔

只是
在空旷的房间 宁静的四周
安静夜晚的陪同下
孤单赤裸裸的浮现
而
当夜光打在回家的背影上
寂寞更是无处可躲
回家的路上
只有星星 在远远的外太空不嫌弃的伴着我...

大学的朋友 可多可少
认识的 不算少
能交谈的 不算多
也有一些在利益与友情间找不到平衡点
或许我太容易相信人了
或许我太不懂防备了
又或许...他们的演技太好了吧
走了越远
看了越多不希望看到的
听了更多...

以前的朋友 不多不少
认识的 不算多
还保持联络的 不算少
只是一些朋友们
因为发生了小小的插曲
像断了线的风筝
永远只成为了生命中的过客...

朋友,
当你在读着这篇心情日记
或许某年某月某一天
你可能会成了其中一个过客
不过关希望这一天永远都不会到来
因为
你...
是我永远的朋友...

14 / 7 / 2008

转眼间,离职也已经快一个月了,
回过头,才发现自己怀念的,舍不得的,仍然还是那么多...

还记得在未进入大学前和朋友们为了大学文件和资料四处奔波的那一段短暂的日子,
如今却成为了难忘的回忆了.

好朋友们都个奔西东了,
有的在吉隆坡,有的在吉打,
有的留在槟城,而有的却去了沙巴沙劳越...

orientation时听说很多朋友都病了,
而且捱的很辛苦,
而有的每天更睡不到三小时,
希望他们在开课时会好点吧...
幸好我的学校还蛮好的... ^^

开学第二个星期了,
还在尝试着适应这里的一切
新环境 新朋友 新方式 新生活
虽然认识了不少朋友,
可是,
却依然惦记曾并肩作战的那些,
因为,
再见面已不知何时了...
三年后,
我会变怎样...
从前的你们又会变得怎样...???
没有人知道答案...

希望距离不会疏远一切...


ps* 有星星的地方,就会有我的思念....