2 : 14 am

沉淀了...
黑暗中,
我找不到我自己...
我知道这不是第一次了..
感觉却一如往昔...

在你们身边
总是尝试着和你们有一样的话题
学习看一些你们都懂的东西
努力聆听你们都早了解的东西

你们都会弹琴
我不会
你们都有的常识
我没有
你们都懂很多东西
我不懂
你们都有着开朗的性格
我逐渐忘了
你们都有的共同点
我没有
也制造不出

我今晚说了很多抱歉
因为我觉得我真的不该如此
却往往难以控制...

你说
不懂的可以慢慢学
久了就一起懂了

可是
等到我学懂了
你们又在另一个我不懂的境界了

不懂
却还要努力装懂

不了解
却不想打断你们而问

好累...
真的很累...

我们的起步点差距太大了
我没能拥有你们的天赋

我在
我不在
毫无差别

我摸索了
却找不到该属于我的位置

微不足道的一粒沙
却想融入黄金堆中
傻的...

流泪了
知道原来是酸的

压抑了
却还是败给了自己

在你们面前
我完全只能是个小孩子

我知道
我很多余

声音是个乐器
我却忘了唱的感觉了

亲爱的,
你住的世界在下着一场过云雨...
你看见吗?

晚安

萤火虫

小小萤火虫，
飞到西、
飞到东，
这边亮，
那边亮，
好像许多小灯笼...

有人...
还记得这首歌吗?
















突然,
很想念萤火虫...

已经很久了,
久到我都快要忘了它的存在了...

小时候,
它是我陌生的玩伴;
长大后,
却只剩模糊的回忆...
















成群结队的在夜空飞舞,
漆黑的夜晚,
闪烁的光芒...
置身在亮点包围的中间,
黑暗有了温馨的感觉...












你知道萤火虫为什么会发光吗？
其实,
萤火虫的尾部两侧有发光器，
每当它呼吸时，
发光器内的“萤光素”就会被氧化，
就是这样发出光的..

小时候,
都会很想抓它来收养,
永远拥有这美丽的光,
却频频被家人制止,
说抓后它们就会死亡...











其实,
它们的寿命并不长,
在野外寿命一般为3-7天,
雄虫在交尾后2天内就会死亡,
而雌虫则在产完卵后香消玉殒...

好不容易由卵至成虫,
为的却是繁殖后代...

然而,
路途中,
为其他同伴照亮了前方的路,
却永远照不到自己的前头...

照亮了后代,
自己却活在漆黑中...

若干年后,
多希望还能有机会把自己置身于它们之中...
感受它们的感受...















再会吧...



萤火虫萤火虫慢慢飞
夏夜里夏夜里风轻吹
怕黑的孩子安心睡吧
让萤火虫给你一点光

燃烧小小的身影在夜晚
为夜路的旅人照亮方向
短暂的生命努力的发光
让黑暗的世界充满希望

萤火虫萤火虫慢慢飞
我的心我的心还在追
城市的灯光明灭闪耀
还有谁会记得你燃烧...光亮...

走过的一段路...

久违的部落,
终于重见天明;
满满的回忆,
载着近来的故事;
复杂的心情,
想写下却无从下笔;
一幕幕...
一丝丝...
烙印脑海...















走过了"内部",
互为战友披上了备甲,
同为努力,
汗水付出,
为的只是战场的几分钟;

































看过了"一启",
深深体验到魅力舞台,
感受的,
不止你们的到来,
还包括惊喜的心意;















三小时的旅程,
说长不长,
说短不短,
却是一班为艺术, 为团体无怨无悔付出的人熬出的,
努力的栽种,
只为完美演出....















三个月的第一学期,
光阴如箭似的来到了尾声....
不惯的生活已经忘了何时成了习惯,
陌生的人物已忘了如何成为了知己...





























混了一段日子,
却从没想过会这么不舍...
从一个人的图书馆,
演变成朋友的聚点;
从一个人的吟所,
成了乐团的"代唱";
从一个人的星空,
变成共同的日出;
一个人的电影,
却多了一群人的观赏....















谢谢一路上的陪伴...
快乐假期哦 ^^

forward msg from mail....

如果真诚是一种伤害,
我选择谎言;
如果谎言一种伤害,
我选择沉默;
如果沉默是一种伤害,
我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，
你怕不怕付出 ,
如果迷乱是苦，
你会不会选择结束,
如果追求是苦，
你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,
如果分离是苦，
你要向谁倾诉,
好多事情都是后来才看清楚,
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

公平吗?

昨天,
听到朋友说,
上天是不公平的...
因为最后一秒出来的东西侥幸的赢了比赛...

而我,
却有不一样的看法...

其实,
上天在给我们一样东西的同时,
也会从而把另一个东西带走...

在今天得到的痛苦;
将在以后得到一样价值的快乐...

可能一个人才华出众,
可是他却在别的方面少了很多东西...

可能拥有了学习的机会,
却少了陪家人朋友的时间,
失去了建立更好的友谊...

可能很富有,
却少了平凡的快乐...

可能遇到了困难挫折,
却同时得到了宝贵的经验...

可能拥有了很好的读书习惯,
却少了交朋友交际的能力...

再可能...
一个人你看他现在仿佛很完美,
可是却永远不知道他之前所受过的伤....
留下的伤痕...

每个人,
都有自己的长处,
也有不完美之处...
这正是上天公平之处...

别羡慕别人,
因为可能他的某样的才能,
远远的在你之上,
可是你也一定总有某个方面是他遥不可及的...

模糊不清

唱歌方法开始变化了..
呼吸位子也随之调动了...

我不懂,
这是对的方法,
还是错的示范;
我开始模糊,
哪一个才是我的原音,
哪一种才是我的特色;
我...已经开始分辨不了了...

以前熟悉的歌曲,
很多都开始唱不了了...
因为高音上不去,
低音下不来;
转音转不美,
假音变很虚...

可是,
却比以前唱的轻松...

喉咙啊喉咙,
你再不争气就不止退步那么简单了..

声音啊声音,
我开始掌控不到你了...
能不能放慢脚步,
能不能让我靠近你多一点,
好让我不再有种陌生的感觉....

.

假期了,
却从未感受到应有的气氛...
期待了很久,
过得却比平常还快..

今天已经是第四天了...
想想,
九天的假期如今已度过了接近一半了,
却什么都没有完成...
等待我的依然是读不完的书...做不完的功课...理解不了的课业...
还有...即将要到来的考试...

今早,
原本拟定和一班老友去沙滩的,
可是雨却迟迟不肯停..
计划都泡汤了..

我深信,
现在很多地方都已淹水了,
两天不停的倾盆大雨,
两天的雨量明显足以和整年的雨量势均力敌...
KOMTAR 就在里我家的不远处,
这是我在那么近的距离,
却感觉不到它的存在..
它..
完完全全的被云给遮着了...

一片茫然...
正好符合了我的心情...
眼前一片茫然...
头脑一片茫然...
心情一片茫然...

最近超爱上了音乐,
那种和以往不一样的感觉,
不能自拔...
我读书的时间已经逐渐的被音乐占据了...
被一个从小到大的梦想占据了...

一篇不知为何下笔的部落格...
一个不想放标题的文章...
可能是近期太不常更新了吧...
也可能是因为雨...
所引发的心情...

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no doubt, is holiday now,
but it seems like still cant found the holiday atmosphere...
is been waiing this holiday for so long time,
but it seems like pass through faster than before...

today already the 4th day of the holiday,
already gone through almost half of 9 days raya holiday...
i try to re-think an re-think,
thats still nothing i have achieved...
there is still lots of book waiting me to study,
still mountain of homework waiting me to finish,
still many subjects needed me to understand it...
and the worst thing,
is the final exam just around the corner...

morning,
planning go to pantai keracut with a gang of old frens,
but rain told us all the story,
we are keep on waiting for the stoppage time,
but at last our plan is floated by rain...

its been non-stop raining for 2 days,
the giant monster heavy big rain keep on falling without hestitate,
the rainfall of these 2 days is nearly equal the amount of whole year rainfall,
and there are many places been floated already..

KOMTAR,
just nearby my house,
but now i cant even felt it existence,
it already been fully covered by the cloud...
it just like magic,
60floors building can suddenly become nothing in my view...

its all blur view,
just like my mood now...
in front of my eyes all blur...
inside my brain all blur...
nothing i can really do now beside let myself keep on "blurring"...

lately,
i become more and more addicted to music...
its the feel totally different like before,
i kenot even pull myself out of it...
slowly and slowly,
my study times a little bit a little bit overtaken by music times,
been replaced by a childhood's dream...

this is a blog which i dunno why i write for,
and a blog i have no idea to put any title of it,
maybe its been long time not updated already,
or...
is because of rain...
lead the feeling to this blog....

第一组

"趁脑海还有回忆, 记忆尚清晰时,
将画面锁在那一瞬间,
把情景封在那一段日子...



5/9/2008

因为"梦想" 这个表演, 而认识的一个朋友,
抱着好奇和想尝试的心情,
就酱被我说服加入了比赛,
也成了这一篇的序幕...



7/9/2008

无疑的,
一个绞尽脑汁的夜晚,
两人开始了备战的第一步 ----- 选歌
说来话长, 其实彼此都刚认识不久,
所以两人都未曾听过对方的歌声;
只因时间的紧促.
加上信任而投下的决定
因此, 即使有小虫在旁帮忙着,
可是, 还是难以抉择...



8/9/200 ~ 12/9/2008

"总要离开才发现,有一个人总习惯和爱中间,
因为每一天见面..."
不断不断地,
同样的旋律...一样的歌词...
一直在食堂顶楼响起...
充满了我们的回音..

第一次接触这首歌的她,
不畏一切的反复练习,
以至自己熟悉的一切...



13/9/2008

一首冷门的歌,
让我们尝尽了天堂地狱的心情...
它,
难度不高不底...
却需要极多的默契去呈现..

一演唱完这首歌,
被评审称赞,
整个心情达到了最高点,
踏出那扇门的那,
两人就像小孩般的在蹦蹦跳跳..

公布入围着的前一刻,
突发状况发生了...
负责人走进了等候室,
把我们和另一组叫了出去..

曾经以为这一类情景只发生在电视的比赛中...
却怎样想也想不到会落在我们身上...
因为完全同分,
所以需要进行pk...
高兴的心情此时此刻顿时消失..
赛后,
因为pk的重唱我们唱得比原本还差,
结果心情就直接跌入谷底...

最后,
我们两组还是一起进了...
因为评审很难割舍...
所以就给我们两组一个机会...

虽然我们都知道是很侥幸才能进入,
却还是遮掩不了开心的笑容.
一整天心就犹如 Sin graph 般的起起落落...



14/9/2008

头痛的一刻又来临了,
选歌又再次困扰了我们...
弄到了凌晨三点多,
才决定了它...



15/9/2008 ~ 19/9/2008

整个星期,
练习次数并没有比上一场来的多...
因为我...
在紧要关头喉咙却不听话...
严重沙亚了..
不止唱不了歌,
就连说话也难...

看着伙伴很努力的练习,
听着她重复的歌声,
总觉得自己好没用..
真的很担心如果比赛那天如果还是复原不了...
那么就真的很对不起她了...

短短几天,
我使劲发子好让自己康复,
从看医生,
吃不同的药...喝苦茶...喝中药...吃喉糖...
能试的我都试了...

倒数的第二天,
我们开始了密集的练习,
虽然无法发挥一百巴仙,
不过能发音就已经是回复中最好的证明了

对这次的比赛,
并没有抱任何希望,
只希望能表现得最好,
有个完美演出...



20/9/2008

我们做到了...
排练再排练,
成果已经验证了一切...

超高兴的一天,
虽然离三甲的水准差很远,
可是至少我们都知道我们表现的最好了...

第一次,
比赛演唱合唱歌...
第一次,
完全没有任何紧张...
第一次,
我很享受当下的舞台...

比赛成果多我们而言已经没有意义了,
因为我们重中学习了太多的东西,
也认识了许多朋友...

当一切都结束了之后,
为了保护喉痛而忍了一个星期的食欲终于解禁了...
我们都不约而同的到kfc宵夜...
餐后却因为学校大门已锁,
结果得绕远路回去...
=.=



赛后语

谢谢寅杰,振宇和一些游子吟朋友的帮忙...你们让我学到了很多东西,丰富了我的经验..
还有,
谢谢你伙伴,
因为你我们的演出才成功...
因为你的坚持才让整个比赛有了意义...












我的伙伴和一群爱唱歌的好友...


今后各都将为不同事务而忙了...
以后open gym 就再听不到我们练歌的声音了哦...

^^


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While my memory still lasting,
while my mind still clear of it,
i try to lock down the scene,
and pulling myself back to the scene once again...



5/9/2008

a song "dream" which perform by my group,
had let me know many new frens,
due to curious,
fren easily been persuade by me to join the competition,
and there is where the story begin...



7/9/2008

no doubt,
the nite had wrack our brain,
both of us starting with the hardest work ------ choosing song
actually both of us just knw each other ,
therefore we never heard each other vocal b4...
so,
even little bug at there try to help us,
bt.....
its still very hard for us to make any decision...



8/9/2008 ~ 12/9/2008

"总要离开才发现,有一个人总习惯和爱中间,
因为每一天见面..."

the song,
keep on repeating and repeating,
the same melody...same lyric...
non-stop soundin at the top of "restu" cafe,
and the air all fulfil with our vocal echo...

this is her 1st time listen to this song,
bt she stil do her best and try to keep on learning,
so that cn more familiar with the song...



13/9/2008

an unpopular song,
which choosen by me,
had let us walk through heaven and passby hell...
the difficulty of the song is still capable,
bt it needs a lots of practice and cooperate to perform...

after sang the song in the audition,
there is lots of happiness because been said nt bad by the judge,
jus after walk out from the door,
both of us non stop jumping happily lik a small child...

anyhow,
the sun will not always shine at there for us,
just before the finalist been announce,
the outbreak happenned...
committee came in and call out my team and another team...

i will never though tis will happen in myself,
its so familiar in the tv singing comp bt...
it really happenned...
due to same marks,
both team had to PK
after finish the PK period,
our mood straight fall into the deep deep dark hole...
because both of us knew that we did a bit badly than previous...

but in the end,
both team oso went into final together...
cz is 2 hard 2 choosen by judge,
so that they willing 2 gv both team a chance...

although we knew that we are lucky to went into final,
but it still cant stop our smile and our joy...
whole day our mood really just lik a Sin Graph...
up and down from start till the end...



14/9/2008

its a headache day again,
song decision had once again preplex us...
it cause us so much time until midnite 3smth oni decide it...



15/9/2008 ~ 19/9/2008

this really the harder week i suffer...
after the audition,
my voice had totally changed,
my throat had seriously "sick"
not just cant sing,
even talking oso will cause a lots of pain...
and it mk us hav to cut down or practice...

my partner was so serious and very hardworking on practicing by her own,
everytime saw her practice...listen to her repeatly,
just felt that i m so useless at there...
i was so worried that i cant recover in time for the final...
it was not oni i will felt sorry to myself...bt...for her oso

this few days,
i had try my best to let myself recover,
from visit the doc...eat pill...put medicine on throat...drink "kucha"...tk chinese medicine...eat strepsil....
watever ways i felt gt help also tried...

countdown : 2 days b4...
we started practicing harder,
although i cant perform 100precent lik usual,
bt atleast fianlly i cn sound out d...

about the comp,
i really din hope to achieve anythings,
just hope that we cn do our best,
hv a nice perform...



20/9/2008

that is the day,
we did it....
after rehearsal n rehearsal by ourself,
result had proven all...

it really a very happy day for me,
although at last we cant even reach top 3,
but we knew that we already gave our best...

1st time,
singing duel song in competition...
1st time,
perform it without any nervous...
1st time,
i was so enjoy the stage...

above all of that,
the comp results already bocme meaningless for us,
we gained too much from it already,
and met many new frens...

when the crowds were gone,
stage was closed,
lights were shut,
we tk our supper at kfc...
after 1 long hard week for controling food tking due to sore throat,
the KFC suddenly tasty than b4...



* PS *

thx yin jie,zhen yu and many you zhi yin senior and frens...
you guys teach me a lots ,i gt grow up from there...
and gain experience from it...

bsides,
thx you ya partner,
cz of you our perform only will be success...
cz of your perserve the perform only turn meaningful...












my comp. partner and frens...


after this,
all of us will busy ourselves in other different field and activity already,
and,
open gym will not hv our practice vocal again...
Good luck to all ya

^^

忙里偷闲

这几天都不知怎么了。。。
头一直都很痛。。。
睡不够也痛，
睡够也痛。。。。
吃饱也痛，
饿时更痛。。。
而且眼睛也一直很荤，
根本没有心上课，
没有心读书，
功课和练习都停了很久完全没有进展。。。
总觉得好像快要生病了得感觉，
可是还得坚持住，
至少让我度过了这两个星期再病吧

连续忙碌的星期，
让我有很多心情和感想想发表也只能搁置一旁。。。
再过几天再上传一些还没发表的近况吧。。。

头又再痛了。。。。

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Dunno what happen these few days,
headache always surrounding me,
lack of sleep oso headache;
sleep well oso headache...
stomach full head still pain;
hungry head more pain...
sumore eyes always felt sleepy,
totally cant concentrate in class,
no mood 2 study oso,
forcing my assignment n projects no improvement at all...

felt that myself wanna sick already ,
but still hv to force myself overcome it,
atleast must make it through tis 2 weeks 1st...

due to busy weeks ,
lots of feel n story also no chance to bloggin,
hope that few days later i can hv the chance to post up some news around me for the pass few weeks...

OMG !!!
headache again.....

国庆夜

已经忘了要写什么了,
一个星期没有上传的部落格,
想要写些什么,
却不知从何下笔...

听了些故事,
看了些心情;
听了些音乐,
看了些电视;
凌晨三点了....
还是决定下线了...

重整了情绪,

有人,
为了自己的利益不顾一切,
设下了圈套骗了上百个人...
有人,
在想见的时候见不到想见的人,
只能把心愿留给未知的明天...
有人,
在寂寞孤独的夜想出外散散心,
却被车匙没电而乖乖呆在家整夜...
有人,
为她msn连接不好而懊恼,
无缘无故的短线影响了她心情...
有人,
为她的故事找聆听者,
希望能信任的听众此时此刻出现...

国庆的一天,
和以往一样,
我还是置身之外,
看着窗外的烟火,
还是一样的耀眼...
可是今晚人们的心情,
却给这闪亮火花蒙了一层黑暗...

伴着音乐,
今晚又是熬夜的一晚...
已经连续性的严重熬夜了,
整个人有点游魂的感觉,
意志却顽强的要写完这篇心情...


ps* 谢谢有送我礼物或是和送我生日歌的朋友哦... yling,steph,rachel,alex,小明,......etc..谢谢你们哦 ^^


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It had been week since my last post,
the blog,
start becoming so strange to me,
there is words to write,
but there is no way to start...

tonight,
i heard some real story,
i seen some frame of mind;
i heard some music,
with the tv programmes...

Time clocking down fastly,
3am aproaching sooner,
finally decided 2 off9....
and re-packed all the mood and feels...

there is someone,
cz of own benifits and selfishly,
make a hole and let hundred and more peaple jump inside...

there is someone,
cant see somebody he wan to see when he is so desperate to do so,
only can leave the desire to the unknown tomorrow...

there is someone,
lies between loneliness and solitary at nite,
due to the outcome of car key no battery...

there is someone,
headache and fed up with her msn,
the unreasonable bad line had influence her mood whole nite...

there is someone,
finding a listener for her own story,
and hopefully there will be trustworthly audience at there for her....

31 of august,
just as usual,
is Merdeka day,
just as usual,
there is still no events for me at so memorable day,
just as usual,
the fireworks still so dazzle...
there is an only unusual tonight,
the bad mood and feel of people,
had cover up the shine firecracker with a layer of dark...

With music on my side,
tonight...still stay up late,
it already had been many continuous days,
never had a nicely early sleeping time,
Blur blur in my closing eyes,
at last also lose to my tenacious will,which want me to finish off this feeling blog.


ps* thx u all for those wh had gift me present or present me with bday songs...yling,steph,rachel,alex,xiao ming.....etc.....thx u all o ^^

"星"辰 贰

在一个睡不到三小时的凌晨,
思想还在为昨晚的数学而懊恼,
对一个当惯夜猫族的我,
要早睡早醒还真的有些难度...

幸好,
有人愿意四点半把我挖醒,
为了实现N天前的约定,
最后还是带着一双熊猫眼出门了...















可惜老天不做美,
让雨的旋律一直在播放...
星星...
因为怕冷而躲起来了...
日出...
也被乌云批上衣服了...
雨...
一直哭个不停...
海水...
也一直随着雨咆哮着...

所有的计划都被撤消,
所有的期待都被熄灭,
剩下的...
就只有两颗失落的心...

虽然如此,
一份突如其来的礼物却点亮了心情,
那...
是一份我收过最特别的礼物...
它,
不昂贵...
也不漂亮...
只是,
就是喜欢它说不出的特别 ^^







































写下的笔迹,
许下的心愿,
是否...
会随海漂流到达实现的那一天呢??

看着它越走越远,
我不懂...
靠岸的旅程还有多久,
也不懂停泊的港口还有多远,
只希望,
它能帮我把快乐和祝福送往每个经过的角落...
















ps * 谢谢早上陪我的小虫, 虽然那木板还是那么的可怕...


这次的假期,
很遗憾的没法和许多朋友聚会,
尤其是淑容妈咪和恩旋爸彼...
却依然收到他们的祝福和礼物...
谢谢你们哦...
我正需要它 ^^


















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Last nite only slept around 3 hours,
while all my mind still thinking of last nite maths,
and for a nite cat like me,
wanted to wake up at 4.30am really is a tough mission...

Luckily,
my fren willing to wake me up at d morning.
To achieve my promises N days ago,
at last i went out with my panda eyes @_@
















When there is a wish,
There always a hurdle...
the melody of rain keeps playing non-stop...
Stars...
started to feel cold and hided...
Sunrise...
also been clothed by the black clouds...
Rain...
crying without any reason...
and the Sea...
also follow the rain roaring...

All the plans had to be cancel,
all the expectation had been extinguish,
and the two disappointed heart,
is what had left for us..

The time pass by,
the surprise present comes and lighted the feeling,
that...
is a special present i had ever receive...
It nt expensive,
it also not so pretty as well,
just,
i like it and the special is hard to voice out...







































The written words,
the wishing made,
izzit...
can carried by the sea until the day it comes true??

With the help of the sea,
It goes more far from time to time,
i dunno...
tat its journey will lasts how long,
i not sure....
tat its harbor still how far to reach,
just...hoped that,
it will help me bring the happiness and blessing to all the places it went through...
















ps* thx for that bug that accompany me at the morning,althought that plank are so scary



this holiday will end soon,
there is a regret in it that many frens cant gather around,
especially shu rong mummy and eng shyuan pappy...
but i had received their warmest regards and present...
thx u guys
i really nid it ^^

"星"辰

19/8/2008

纳闷的假期,
如常的迟醒;
一样的早上,
相同的地点;
坐在电脑前的我,
仍在探索吉他的奥妙,
唯一和昨天不一样的...
就只有少了孤单的雨...

不过,
当太阳快要下山的那一刻,
我重见光明的时刻也来了...

一辆小小的克力杀,
6707的幸运号码,
不仅把我从无聊的黑洞中救起,
而且,
还把我载到熟悉的老地方...

距离上一次踏进,
已经好久好久了,
五个人,
拿了比较大的房间,
以久违的心情,
开始了今晚的故事...

红盒子的歌还是如常的有加新,
水还是那么的普通,
蛋糕还是一样那么可口... ^^
只是今晚的自助餐意外的比以往好吃...

由于配合奥林匹克,
红盒子的夜游戏也提早开始了,
幸运的朋友,
还得了三个小小的礼物...

华山论"喉"了几个小时后,
影幕的歌曲突然被关掉了...
再还没来得及回过神来的那一秒,
蛋糕已慢慢的出现在眼前,
生日歌也已在空气盘旋了...


















此时此刻,
除了感动...
还是感动...












































今年...
比预料中早..
却比预料中开心...

谢谢你们八小时的歌喉和礼物哦...
我都很喜欢 ^^
谢谢哦...

ps* 真正的生日日期还没到噢...


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19/8/2008

Still the same bore holiday,
still wake up late as usual,
the same room again in the same morning...
There is same laptop in front of me,
which trying to access the journey to the guitar world...
All yesterday scene continue shown today,
the only thing that left behind,
is the sadness rain...

But,
when the sunset,
its totally a brand new day for me..

Kelisa is coming,
with the lucky number 6707,
It not only save me from the dark bored hole,
and also drive me to the most familiar place...


Its been long long time ago since last time visit here,
and after taken a bigger room,
with the same five people,
the story of night finally start,
with all hold different feeling...

Redbox's song still updates as usual,
Drinks still normal as last time,
Cakes still so delicious among all,
and,
the buffet tonight are surprisingly nicer than all time...

Due to olympic fever at the moment,
the games inside redbox had started earlier,
which oftenly only held at late night...
my fren,
with the lucky shine all around,
had won 3 small prizes...

After few hours later,
the screen inside room suddenly been cut off,
while i still wondering what had happen,
the cake already brought in without any hesitated,
the bday song clearly fulfil all the spaces between the air...
















The moments,
The feels,
beside touch...
still touch...













































this year,
is earlier than expected...
but is more happy than expected...

thx u guys for all the things,
no matter yours eight hours voice inside the room,
or yours presents,
I really appreciate and like it...
thx o..
^^

ps* real bday still have week to go...

雨的心情

假期的第四天,
在家也第四天...

我的假期到底怎么了,
以往一直在假期外出的时期,
如今却懒惰动了...

原本今天打算要去和以前公司的同事用午餐的,
可是,
一场浩大的倾盆大雨不止把这午餐给吹走,
而且,
还阻止了原本打算去探营的我...














已经好几个星期没有风雨交加过了,
今天的这一切都来得那么突然..
没有前兆的大雨,
仿佛...
告诉我...
要我继续呆在家里...

灰色的天空,
连绵不断的雨;
冷淡的街,
寥寥无几的行人;
安静的小路,
还有一成不变的老屋...
好像,
已经过了很久,
我没向窗外眺望了....

"听雨的声音,
像悲伤的歌曲,
滂沱大雨竟如此的孤寂...
我陪雨哭泣雨却还不肯停
寂寞的人才懂雨的心情
雨反复唱着熟悉旋律
用悲伤的情绪
听雨的声音仿佛谁在哭泣..."

这首歌...
这旋律...
仿佛成为了最好的背景音乐...

悲伤的雨,
是否
在哭过了以后,
一切都会天晴呢...
悲伤的心情,
是否
在事过境迁后,
记忆就会模糊呢...

雨...
何时才停...
伤...
何时能痊愈...

没有人,
能有答案...

是彩虹...
因为它的出现,
雨...
显得有意义...
也因为雨的悲,
衬托了彩虹的美...

曾受过的伤,
请别怕去跨越...
因为,
在雨后
总会有一道最美的彩虹..
在为你守候着..
等待为你划出另一道更美丽的风景..

朋友,
你
看见彩虹了吗??





















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today,
is the 4th day of my school holiday...
and,
is also my 4th days stay at house..

i dunno what had happen to my holiday,
or maybe myself,
always hanging out in the past while holiday,
but now...
become more lazier n lazier...

originally plan to go out have a lunch with my x-colleague today,
but at last,
rain told me everythings...
it not only block me for my lunch,
and also make me cant go to visit my x-society camp..














Its been long time since last heavy rain occured,
and it just comes so sudden,
without any omen...
seems like it wanna stay at home today again..

With the rain falling non-stop,
the sky is so grey,
and it already started become more and more towards black...
the amount of pedestrian,
had make the road become silence...
and the old houses,
are all stay same as the past with the raindrops..
I realise that,
already long long time I did not take the view from the my windows...

"听雨的声音,
像悲伤的歌曲,
滂沱大雨竟如此的孤寂...
我陪雨哭泣雨却还不肯停
寂寞的人才懂雨的心情
雨反复唱着熟悉旋律
用悲伤的情绪
听雨的声音仿佛谁在哭泣..."

the song...
the music...
already become background music without any sense..

the sadness rain,
crying non stop since morning...
izzit..
after the wind and rain,
there would be a brand new day....??

the broken heart,
izzit..
with the time passing through,
memory will become fuzzy....??

rain...
when only can stop...
pain...
when only can recover...

no one,
got the answer...


Is rainbow...
with the appear of rainbow,
rain..
become meaningful..
oppositely,
because sadness of the rain,
rainbow become prettier...

The pain gainned,
The damaged heart,
pls dont be afraid to overcome it..
because,
there will be rainbow after rain,
it always there for you..
waiting you to draw another nice sceney...

frens,
there is a rainbow...
did you saw it ??
=)

太多的太多

想学的东西太多了, 可是资金却少的可怜;
学习的机会太多了, 可是时间却隔阻了一切;
功课也越来越多了, 可是会解答的却越来越少;
教课越来越远了, 可是记忆却还在原地踏步...

最近,
想做的东西实在太多了,

我想要读书, 好让自己能应付即将要来临的考试,
不让一个学期的烂成绩拖累了以后的总平均;

我想要学游泳, 好让自己多一个娱乐,
毕竟学了总不会白费的,
而且如今天时地利人和,
有好的设备及朋友的教导,
不学就太不应该了;

我想要练乒乓, 好让自己有机会MASUM,
加上乒乓是我一直以来的较在行的运动,
荒废了简直就是对不起过去的努力与汗水;

我想要加入歌唱, 让自己有贡献的余地,
毕竟爱好永远都无法割舍的;

我想要假如游子吟, 好让自己有机会学习乐器,
梦想有一天自弹自唱的自己,
再没机会接触的童年,
二十岁的我再不学就太迟了;

我想要谈恋爱, 单身了那么久了,
加上看了紫色苹果园的文章,
再怎样也不是那么好受吧...

很多很多...
想做的事情都堆满了脑海...
纵然如此,
可是,
我始终还看不到通往完成的那一段路...

30 / 7 / 2008

大学校园里 第二度下笔
却与首次的感觉天渊之别
疯狂的欢笑 结群的游伴
顿时间飞逝而去
换来的
却是繁重的课业
释重的功课 深奥的数学
已渐渐地把我逼的透不过气来
或许并非不是我的成绩不够好
而
只是在一个属于强者的场所里
压力无形间的形成在最差的那个我
或许
放松一点会比较好吧
但
我无法想象一旦松解开了以后
我还有没有能力去追回
所以
才一直努力不懈
不让自己有第二次后悔的机会

一直想拥有的校园生活
一直想要体验的生涯
原来
并非犹如脑海般里的画面
也并非如外人看到的简单
只是
我从不后悔我做的选择
因为
这将是一种新生活 新挑战
但一切再次从零开始
没有人在乎我的过去
新一页的里程碑将从中下笔

只是
在空旷的房间 宁静的四周
安静夜晚的陪同下
孤单赤裸裸的浮现
而
当夜光打在回家的背影上
寂寞更是无处可躲
回家的路上
只有星星 在远远的外太空不嫌弃的伴着我...

大学的朋友 可多可少
认识的 不算少
能交谈的 不算多
也有一些在利益与友情间找不到平衡点
或许我太容易相信人了
或许我太不懂防备了
又或许...他们的演技太好了吧
走了越远
看了越多不希望看到的
听了更多...

以前的朋友 不多不少
认识的 不算多
还保持联络的 不算少
只是一些朋友们
因为发生了小小的插曲
像断了线的风筝
永远只成为了生命中的过客...

朋友,
当你在读着这篇心情日记
或许某年某月某一天
你可能会成了其中一个过客
不过关希望这一天永远都不会到来
因为
你...
是我永远的朋友...

14 / 7 / 2008

转眼间,离职也已经快一个月了,
回过头,才发现自己怀念的,舍不得的,仍然还是那么多...

还记得在未进入大学前和朋友们为了大学文件和资料四处奔波的那一段短暂的日子,
如今却成为了难忘的回忆了.

好朋友们都个奔西东了,
有的在吉隆坡,有的在吉打,
有的留在槟城,而有的却去了沙巴沙劳越...

orientation时听说很多朋友都病了,
而且捱的很辛苦,
而有的每天更睡不到三小时,
希望他们在开课时会好点吧...
幸好我的学校还蛮好的... ^^

开学第二个星期了,
还在尝试着适应这里的一切
新环境 新朋友 新方式 新生活
虽然认识了不少朋友,
可是,
却依然惦记曾并肩作战的那些,
因为,
再见面已不知何时了...
三年后,
我会变怎样...
从前的你们又会变得怎样...???
没有人知道答案...

希望距离不会疏远一切...


ps* 有星星的地方,就会有我的思念....

倒数 5 天

看到了朋友的部落格
http://violetgooi.spaces.live.com/Blog/cns!28A2A815C122D228!156.entry
重整了心情一下...

离离职还只剩下一个星期的时间而已,
之前多想早点离职,
如今却带着不舍的心情面对这一切...
从来都没想过会认识到一群很好的朋友..

犹记得刚刚上班的那一天,
那时是在hotel orientation...
还没到公司就直接酱的训练三天,
除了有得吃自由餐以外...
其他的...除了闷还是闷...

踏入这间公司的第一天,
被派到和朋友不同的组别...
毕竟工作,
这种事件总免不了的...
可是却也让我认识了更多能谈天的朋友..

我的组...
工作量是最多的一组,
一开始其实有点介意,
因为其他组在忙时我们也在忙;
但当其他组轻松时,我们也在忙..
可是..
这种感觉很快就消失了...
因为当看到一整叠的工作被一一的完成时,
却有种说不出的满足感...

等到不用工作的那一天,
我应该不会太习惯吧
就好像每天都必须看到和面对的东西,
瞬间消失般的...

我们这群都即将为自己开拓大学生活,
这次的离别以后,
不知什么时候大伙们还能一起重聚了...


因为距离,所以美丽;
因为短暂,所以珍惜...

7 / 6 / 2008

今天和大伙们出门了...
第一次坐她们的车,
被载的感觉还是蛮好的嘛...
嘻嘻 ^^

本来约好两点的,
怎知碰到学校假期+公共假期,
结果就在格尼广场的停车场那儿不停的绕了很多圈...
看了看时间,
已经过了四十分了...
本来已经以为是迟到了,
怎知...
只有一个人到而已 =.="""

我们在pasta mania用午餐,
食物还好而已,
没有想象的好吃..
只是很久没吃pasta了,
所以感觉特别一点...

晚上,
我们就再次出发,
从格尼到同事孩子的生日会
她的孩子两个都可爱极了
多想以后也有酱可爱的宝宝
嘻嘻

天灰

请先点击音乐...


经过了好几个夜晚,
我学会不再执着了...
纵然,
内心有千千万万个不舍...
亿亿兆兆的难过...
或许,
放手会比较快乐吧...

属于我的,
怎样都会属于自己的;
不属于我的,
在怎么强求挽留,
到最后都会随风而去...

"当拥有一件东西时,同时也将失去另一样同值的东西;
而当失去一样东西的同时,也将拥有另一个预想不到的东西."
一直以来,
我都相信上天是公平的,
所以,
我一直都坚信着这句话...
可是...
真的是如此吗..??
我...
没有答案...

手如果像拳头般紧握着不放,
所握着的...都会在指缝间慢慢的流走...
只要把手打开,
把心敞开,
拥有的将是全世界...
这...
是一个给自己的话...



"我的天空今天有点灰....我的心是个落叶的季节...
我不知道如何度过今夜...所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭..."