小小萤火虫，
飞到西、
飞到东，
这边亮，
那边亮，
好像许多小灯笼...
有人...
还记得这首歌吗?
突然,
很想念萤火虫...
已经很久了,
久到我都快要忘了它的存在了...
小时候,
它是我陌生的玩伴;
长大后,
却只剩模糊的回忆...
成群结队的在夜空飞舞,
漆黑的夜晚,
闪烁的光芒...
置身在亮点包围的中间,
黑暗有了温馨的感觉...
你知道萤火虫为什么会发光吗？
其实,
萤火虫的尾部两侧有发光器，
每当它呼吸时，
发光器内的“萤光素”就会被氧化，
就是这样发出光的..
小时候,
都会很想抓它来收养,
永远拥有这美丽的光,
却频频被家人制止,
说抓后它们就会死亡...
其实,
它们的寿命并不长,
在野外寿命一般为3-7天,
雄虫在交尾后2天内就会死亡,
而雌虫则在产完卵后香消玉殒...
好不容易由卵至成虫,
为的却是繁殖后代...
然而,
路途中,
为其他同伴照亮了前方的路,
却永远照不到自己的前头...
照亮了后代,
自己却活在漆黑中...
若干年后,
多希望还能有机会把自己置身于它们之中...
感受它们的感受...
再会吧...
萤火虫萤火虫慢慢飞
夏夜里夏夜里风轻吹
怕黑的孩子安心睡吧
让萤火虫给你一点光
燃烧小小的身影在夜晚
为夜路的旅人照亮方向
短暂的生命努力的发光
让黑暗的世界充满希望
萤火虫萤火虫慢慢飞
我的心我的心还在追
城市的灯光明灭闪耀
还有谁会记得你燃烧...光亮...
久违的部落,
终于重见天明;
满满的回忆,
载着近来的故事;
复杂的心情,
想写下却无从下笔;
一幕幕...
一丝丝...
烙印脑海...
走过了"内部",
互为战友披上了备甲,
同为努力,
汗水付出,
为的只是战场的几分钟;
看过了"一启",
深深体验到魅力舞台,
感受的,
不止你们的到来,
还包括惊喜的心意;
三小时的旅程,
说长不长,
说短不短,
却是一班为艺术, 为团体无怨无悔付出的人熬出的,
努力的栽种,
只为完美演出....
三个月的第一学期,
光阴如箭似的来到了尾声....
不惯的生活已经忘了何时成了习惯,
陌生的人物已忘了如何成为了知己...
混了一段日子,
却从没想过会这么不舍...
从一个人的图书馆,
演变成朋友的聚点;
从一个人的吟所,
成了乐团的"代唱";
从一个人的星空,
变成共同的日出;
一个人的电影,
却多了一群人的观赏....
谢谢一路上的陪伴...
快乐假期哦 ^^
如果真诚是一种伤害,
我选择谎言;
如果谎言一种伤害,
我选择沉默;
如果沉默是一种伤害,
我选择离开.
如果失去是苦，
你怕不怕付出 ,
如果迷乱是苦，
你会不会选择结束,
如果追求是苦，
你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,
如果分离是苦，
你要向谁倾诉,
好多事情都是后来才看清楚,
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!
昨天,
听到朋友说,
上天是不公平的...
因为最后一秒出来的东西侥幸的赢了比赛...
而我,
却有不一样的看法...
其实,
上天在给我们一样东西的同时,
也会从而把另一个东西带走...
在今天得到的痛苦;
将在以后得到一样价值的快乐...
可能一个人才华出众,
可是他却在别的方面少了很多东西...
可能拥有了学习的机会,
却少了陪家人朋友的时间,
失去了建立更好的友谊...
可能很富有,
却少了平凡的快乐...
可能遇到了困难挫折,
却同时得到了宝贵的经验...
可能拥有了很好的读书习惯,
却少了交朋友交际的能力...
再可能...
一个人你看他现在仿佛很完美,
可是却永远不知道他之前所受过的伤....
留下的伤痕...
每个人,
都有自己的长处,
也有不完美之处...
这正是上天公平之处...
别羡慕别人,
因为可能他的某样的才能,
远远的在你之上,
可是你也一定总有某个方面是他遥不可及的...
唱歌方法开始变化了..
呼吸位子也随之调动了...
我不懂,
这是对的方法,
还是错的示范;
我开始模糊,
哪一个才是我的原音,
哪一种才是我的特色;
我...已经开始分辨不了了...
以前熟悉的歌曲,
很多都开始唱不了了...
因为高音上不去,
低音下不来;
转音转不美,
假音变很虚...
可是,
却比以前唱的轻松...
喉咙啊喉咙,
你再不争气就不止退步那么简单了..
声音啊声音,
我开始掌控不到你了...
能不能放慢脚步,
能不能让我靠近你多一点,
好让我不再有种陌生的感觉....
假期了,
却从未感受到应有的气氛...
期待了很久,
过得却比平常还快..
今天已经是第四天了...
想想,
九天的假期如今已度过了接近一半了,
却什么都没有完成...
等待我的依然是读不完的书...做不完的功课...理解不了的课业...
还有...即将要到来的考试...
今早,
原本拟定和一班老友去沙滩的,
可是雨却迟迟不肯停..
计划都泡汤了..
我深信,
现在很多地方都已淹水了,
两天不停的倾盆大雨,
两天的雨量明显足以和整年的雨量势均力敌...
KOMTAR 就在里我家的不远处,
这是我在那么近的距离,
却感觉不到它的存在..
它..
完完全全的被云给遮着了...
一片茫然...
正好符合了我的心情...
眼前一片茫然...
头脑一片茫然...
心情一片茫然...
最近超爱上了音乐,
那种和以往不一样的感觉,
不能自拔...
我读书的时间已经逐渐的被音乐占据了...
被一个从小到大的梦想占据了...
一篇不知为何下笔的部落格...
一个不想放标题的文章...
可能是近期太不常更新了吧...
也可能是因为雨...
所引发的心情...
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no doubt, is holiday now,
but it seems like still cant found the holiday atmosphere...
is been waiing this holiday for so long time,
but it seems like pass through faster than before...
today already the 4th day of the holiday,
already gone through almost half of 9 days raya holiday...
i try to re-think an re-think,
thats still nothing i have achieved...
there is still lots of book waiting me to study,
still mountain of homework waiting me to finish,
still many subjects needed me to understand it...
and the worst thing,
is the final exam just around the corner...
morning,
planning go to pantai keracut with a gang of old frens,
but rain told us all the story,
we are keep on waiting for the stoppage time,
but at last our plan is floated by rain...
its been non-stop raining for 2 days,
the giant monster heavy big rain keep on falling without hestitate,
the rainfall of these 2 days is nearly equal the amount of whole year rainfall,
and there are many places been floated already..
KOMTAR,
just nearby my house,
but now i cant even felt it existence,
it already been fully covered by the cloud...
it just like magic,
60floors building can suddenly become nothing in my view...
its all blur view,
just like my mood now...
in front of my eyes all blur...
inside my brain all blur...
nothing i can really do now beside let myself keep on "blurring"...
lately,
i become more and more addicted to music...
its the feel totally different like before,
i kenot even pull myself out of it...
slowly and slowly,
my study times a little bit a little bit overtaken by music times,
been replaced by a childhood's dream...
this is a blog which i dunno why i write for,
and a blog i have no idea to put any title of it,
maybe its been long time not updated already,
or...
is because of rain...
lead the feeling to this blog....
"趁脑海还有回忆, 记忆尚清晰时,
将画面锁在那一瞬间,
把情景封在那一段日子...
5/9/2008
因为"梦想" 这个表演, 而认识的一个朋友,
抱着好奇和想尝试的心情,
就酱被我说服加入了比赛,
也成了这一篇的序幕...
7/9/2008
无疑的,
一个绞尽脑汁的夜晚,
两人开始了备战的第一步 ----- 选歌
说来话长, 其实彼此都刚认识不久,
所以两人都未曾听过对方的歌声;
只因时间的紧促.
加上信任而投下的决定
因此, 即使有小虫在旁帮忙着,
可是, 还是难以抉择...
8/9/200 ~ 12/9/2008
"总要离开才发现,有一个人总习惯和爱中间,
因为每一天见面..."
不断不断地,
同样的旋律...一样的歌词...
一直在食堂顶楼响起...
充满了我们的回音..
第一次接触这首歌的她,
不畏一切的反复练习,
以至自己熟悉的一切...
13/9/2008
一首冷门的歌,
让我们尝尽了天堂地狱的心情...
它,
难度不高不底...
却需要极多的默契去呈现..
一演唱完这首歌,
被评审称赞,
整个心情达到了最高点,
踏出那扇门的那,
两人就像小孩般的在蹦蹦跳跳..
公布入围着的前一刻,
突发状况发生了...
负责人走进了等候室,
把我们和另一组叫了出去..
曾经以为这一类情景只发生在电视的比赛中...
却怎样想也想不到会落在我们身上...
因为完全同分,
所以需要进行pk...
高兴的心情此时此刻顿时消失..
赛后,
因为pk的重唱我们唱得比原本还差,
结果心情就直接跌入谷底...
最后,
我们两组还是一起进了...
因为评审很难割舍...
所以就给我们两组一个机会...
虽然我们都知道是很侥幸才能进入,
却还是遮掩不了开心的笑容.
一整天心就犹如 Sin graph 般的起起落落...
14/9/2008
头痛的一刻又来临了,
选歌又再次困扰了我们...
弄到了凌晨三点多,
才决定了它...
15/9/2008 ~ 19/9/2008
整个星期,
练习次数并没有比上一场来的多...
因为我...
在紧要关头喉咙却不听话...
严重沙亚了..
不止唱不了歌,
就连说话也难...
看着伙伴很努力的练习,
听着她重复的歌声,
总觉得自己好没用..
真的很担心如果比赛那天如果还是复原不了...
那么就真的很对不起她了...
短短几天,
我使劲发子好让自己康复,
从看医生,
吃不同的药...喝苦茶...喝中药...吃喉糖...
能试的我都试了...
倒数的第二天,
我们开始了密集的练习,
虽然无法发挥一百巴仙,
不过能发音就已经是回复中最好的证明了
对这次的比赛,
并没有抱任何希望,
只希望能表现得最好,
有个完美演出...
20/9/2008
我们做到了...
排练再排练,
成果已经验证了一切...
超高兴的一天,
虽然离三甲的水准差很远,
可是至少我们都知道我们表现的最好了...
第一次,
比赛演唱合唱歌...
第一次,
完全没有任何紧张...
第一次,
我很享受当下的舞台...
比赛成果多我们而言已经没有意义了,
因为我们重中学习了太多的东西,
也认识了许多朋友...
当一切都结束了之后,
为了保护喉痛而忍了一个星期的食欲终于解禁了...
我们都不约而同的到kfc宵夜...
餐后却因为学校大门已锁,
结果得绕远路回去...
=.=
赛后语
谢谢寅杰,振宇和一些游子吟朋友的帮忙...你们让我学到了很多东西,丰富了我的经验..
还有,
谢谢你伙伴,
因为你我们的演出才成功...
因为你的坚持才让整个比赛有了意义...
我的伙伴和一群爱唱歌的好友...
今后各都将为不同事务而忙了...
以后open gym 就再听不到我们练歌的声音了哦...
^^
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While my memory still lasting,
while my mind still clear of it,
i try to lock down the scene,
and pulling myself back to the scene once again...
5/9/2008
a song "dream" which perform by my group,
had let me know many new frens,
due to curious,
fren easily been persuade by me to join the competition,
and there is where the story begin...
7/9/2008
no doubt,
the nite had wrack our brain,
both of us starting with the hardest work ------ choosing song
actually both of us just knw each other ,
therefore we never heard each other vocal b4...
so,
even little bug at there try to help us,
bt.....
its still very hard for us to make any decision...
8/9/2008 ~ 12/9/2008
"总要离开才发现,有一个人总习惯和爱中间,
因为每一天见面..."
the song,
keep on repeating and repeating,
the same melody...same lyric...
non-stop soundin at the top of "restu" cafe,
and the air all fulfil with our vocal echo...
this is her 1st time listen to this song,
bt she stil do her best and try to keep on learning,
so that cn more familiar with the song...
13/9/2008
an unpopular song,
which choosen by me,
had let us walk through heaven and passby hell...
the difficulty of the song is still capable,
bt it needs a lots of practice and cooperate to perform...
after sang the song in the audition,
there is lots of happiness because been said nt bad by the judge,
jus after walk out from the door,
both of us non stop jumping happily lik a small child...
anyhow,
the sun will not always shine at there for us,
just before the finalist been announce,
the outbreak happenned...
committee came in and call out my team and another team...
i will never though tis will happen in myself,
its so familiar in the tv singing comp bt...
it really happenned...
due to same marks,
both team had to PK
after finish the PK period,
our mood straight fall into the deep deep dark hole...
because both of us knew that we did a bit badly than previous...
but in the end,
both team oso went into final together...
cz is 2 hard 2 choosen by judge,
so that they willing 2 gv both team a chance...
although we knew that we are lucky to went into final,
but it still cant stop our smile and our joy...
whole day our mood really just lik a Sin Graph...
up and down from start till the end...
14/9/2008
its a headache day again,
song decision had once again preplex us...
it cause us so much time until midnite 3smth oni decide it...
15/9/2008 ~ 19/9/2008
this really the harder week i suffer...
after the audition,
my voice had totally changed,
my throat had seriously "sick"
not just cant sing,
even talking oso will cause a lots of pain...
and it mk us hav to cut down or practice...
my partner was so serious and very hardworking on practicing by her own,
everytime saw her practice...listen to her repeatly,
just felt that i m so useless at there...
i was so worried that i cant recover in time for the final...
it was not oni i will felt sorry to myself...bt...for her oso
this few days,
i had try my best to let myself recover,
from visit the doc...eat pill...put medicine on throat...drink "kucha"...tk chinese medicine...eat strepsil....
watever ways i felt gt help also tried...
countdown : 2 days b4...
we started practicing harder,
although i cant perform 100precent lik usual,
bt atleast fianlly i cn sound out d...
about the comp,
i really din hope to achieve anythings,
just hope that we cn do our best,
hv a nice perform...
20/9/2008
that is the day,
we did it....
after rehearsal n rehearsal by ourself,
result had proven all...
it really a very happy day for me,
although at last we cant even reach top 3,
but we knew that we already gave our best...
1st time,
singing duel song in competition...
1st time,
perform it without any nervous...
1st time,
i was so enjoy the stage...
above all of that,
the comp results already bocme meaningless for us,
we gained too much from it already,
and met many new frens...
when the crowds were gone,
stage was closed,
lights were shut,
we tk our supper at kfc...
after 1 long hard week for controling food tking due to sore throat,
the KFC suddenly tasty than b4...
* PS *
thx yin jie,zhen yu and many you zhi yin senior and frens...
you guys teach me a lots ,i gt grow up from there...
and gain experience from it...
bsides,
thx you ya partner,
cz of you our perform only will be success...
cz of your perserve the perform only turn meaningful...
my comp. partner and frens...
after this,
all of us will busy ourselves in other different field and activity already,
and,
open gym will not hv our practice vocal again...
Good luck to all ya
^^
这几天都不知怎么了。。。
头一直都很痛。。。睡不够也痛，睡够也痛。。。。吃饱也痛，饿时更痛。。。而且眼睛也一直很荤，根本没有心上课，
没有心读书，功课和练习都停了很久完全没有进展。。。总觉得好像快要生病了得感觉，
可是还得坚持住，
至少让我度过了这两个星期再病吧连续忙碌的星期，
让我有很多心情和感想想发表也只能搁置一旁。。。再过几天再上传一些还没发表的近况吧。。。头又再痛了。。。。---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Dunno what happen these few days,headache always surrounding me,lack of sleep oso headache;sleep well oso headache...stomach full head still pain;hungry head more pain...sumore eyes always felt sleepy,totally cant concentrate in class,no mood 2 study oso,forcing my assignment n projects no improvement at all...felt that myself wanna sick already ,but still hv to force myself overcome it,atleast must make it through tis 2 weeks 1st...due to busy weeks ,lots of feel n story also no chance to bloggin,hope that few days later i can hv the chance to post up some news around me for the pass few weeks...OMG !!!headache again.....
已经忘了要写什么了,
一个星期没有上传的部落格,
想要写些什么,
却不知从何下笔...
听了些故事,
看了些心情;
听了些音乐,
看了些电视;
凌晨三点了....
还是决定下线了...
重整了情绪,
有人,
为了自己的利益不顾一切,
设下了圈套骗了上百个人...
有人,
在想见的时候见不到想见的人,
只能把心愿留给未知的明天...
有人,
在寂寞孤独的夜想出外散散心,
却被车匙没电而乖乖呆在家整夜...
有人,
为她msn连接不好而懊恼,
无缘无故的短线影响了她心情...
有人,
为她的故事找聆听者,
希望能信任的听众此时此刻出现...
国庆的一天,
和以往一样,
我还是置身之外,
看着窗外的烟火,
还是一样的耀眼...
可是今晚人们的心情,
却给这闪亮火花蒙了一层黑暗...
伴着音乐,
今晚又是熬夜的一晚...
已经连续性的严重熬夜了,
整个人有点游魂的感觉,
意志却顽强的要写完这篇心情...
ps* 谢谢有送我礼物或是和送我生日歌的朋友哦... yling,steph,rachel,alex,小明,......etc..谢谢你们哦 ^^
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It had been week since my last post,
the blog,
start becoming so strange to me,
there is words to write,
but there is no way to start...
tonight,
i heard some real story,
i seen some frame of mind;
i heard some music,
with the tv programmes...
Time clocking down fastly,
3am aproaching sooner,
finally decided 2 off9....
and re-packed all the mood and feels...
there is someone,
cz of own benifits and selfishly,
make a hole and let hundred and more peaple jump inside...
there is someone,
cant see somebody he wan to see when he is so desperate to do so,
only can leave the desire to the unknown tomorrow...
there is someone,
lies between loneliness and solitary at nite,
due to the outcome of car key no battery...
there is someone,
headache and fed up with her msn,
the unreasonable bad line had influence her mood whole nite...
there is someone,
finding a listener for her own story,
and hopefully there will be trustworthly audience at there for her....
31 of august,
just as usual,
is Merdeka day,
just as usual,
there is still no events for me at so memorable day,
just as usual,
the fireworks still so dazzle...
there is an only unusual tonight,
the bad mood and feel of people,
had cover up the shine firecracker with a layer of dark...
With music on my side,
tonight...still stay up late,
it already had been many continuous days,
never had a nicely early sleeping time,
Blur blur in my closing eyes,
at last also lose to my tenacious will,which want me to finish off this feeling blog.
ps* thx u all for those wh had gift me present or present me with bday songs...yling,steph,rachel,alex,xiao ming.....etc.....thx u all o ^^
在一个睡不到三小时的凌晨,
思想还在为昨晚的数学而懊恼,
对一个当惯夜猫族的我,
要早睡早醒还真的有些难度...
幸好,
有人愿意四点半把我挖醒,
为了实现N天前的约定,
最后还是带着一双熊猫眼出门了...
可惜老天不做美,
让雨的旋律一直在播放...
星星...
因为怕冷而躲起来了...
日出...
也被乌云批上衣服了...
雨...
一直哭个不停...
海水...
也一直随着雨咆哮着...
所有的计划都被撤消,
所有的期待都被熄灭,
剩下的...
就只有两颗失落的心...
虽然如此,
一份突如其来的礼物却点亮了心情,
那...
是一份我收过最特别的礼物...
它,
不昂贵...
也不漂亮...
只是,
就是喜欢它说不出的特别 ^^
写下的笔迹,
许下的心愿,
是否...
会随海漂流到达实现的那一天呢??
看着它越走越远,
我不懂...
靠岸的旅程还有多久,
也不懂停泊的港口还有多远,
只希望,
它能帮我把快乐和祝福送往每个经过的角落...
ps * 谢谢早上陪我的小虫, 虽然那木板还是那么的可怕...
这次的假期,
很遗憾的没法和许多朋友聚会,
尤其是淑容妈咪和恩旋爸彼...
却依然收到他们的祝福和礼物...
谢谢你们哦...
我正需要它 ^^
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Last nite only slept around 3 hours,
while all my mind still thinking of last nite maths,
and for a nite cat like me,
wanted to wake up at 4.30am really is a tough mission...
Luckily,
my fren willing to wake me up at d morning.
To achieve my promises N days ago,
at last i went out with my panda eyes @_@
When there is a wish,
There always a hurdle...
the melody of rain keeps playing non-stop...
Stars...
started to feel cold and hided...
Sunrise...
also been clothed by the black clouds...
Rain...
crying without any reason...
and the Sea...
also follow the rain roaring...
All the plans had to be cancel,
all the expectation had been extinguish,
and the two disappointed heart,
is what had left for us..
The time pass by,
the surprise present comes and lighted the feeling,
that...
is a special present i had ever receive...
It nt expensive,
it also not so pretty as well,
just,
i like it and the special is hard to voice out...
The written words,
the wishing made,
izzit...
can carried by the sea until the day it comes true??
With the help of the sea,
It goes more far from time to time,
i dunno...
tat its journey will lasts how long,
i not sure....
tat its harbor still how far to reach,
just...hoped that,
it will help me bring the happiness and blessing to all the places it went through...
ps* thx for that bug that accompany me at the morning,althought that plank are so scary
this holiday will end soon,
there is a regret in it that many frens cant gather around,
especially shu rong mummy and eng shyuan pappy...
but i had received their warmest regards and present...
thx u guys
i really nid it ^^
