.

假期了,
却从未感受到应有的气氛...
期待了很久,
过得却比平常还快..

今天已经是第四天了...
想想,
九天的假期如今已度过了接近一半了,
却什么都没有完成...
等待我的依然是读不完的书...做不完的功课...理解不了的课业...
还有...即将要到来的考试...

今早,
原本拟定和一班老友去沙滩的,
可是雨却迟迟不肯停..
计划都泡汤了..

我深信,
现在很多地方都已淹水了,
两天不停的倾盆大雨,
两天的雨量明显足以和整年的雨量势均力敌...
KOMTAR 就在里我家的不远处,
这是我在那么近的距离,
却感觉不到它的存在..
它..
完完全全的被云给遮着了...

一片茫然...
正好符合了我的心情...
眼前一片茫然...
头脑一片茫然...
心情一片茫然...

最近超爱上了音乐,
那种和以往不一样的感觉,
不能自拔...
我读书的时间已经逐渐的被音乐占据了...
被一个从小到大的梦想占据了...

一篇不知为何下笔的部落格...
一个不想放标题的文章...
可能是近期太不常更新了吧...
也可能是因为雨...
所引发的心情...

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no doubt, is holiday now,
but it seems like still cant found the holiday atmosphere...
is been waiing this holiday for so long time,
but it seems like pass through faster than before...

today already the 4th day of the holiday,
already gone through almost half of 9 days raya holiday...
i try to re-think an re-think,
thats still nothing i have achieved...
there is still lots of book waiting me to study,
still mountain of homework waiting me to finish,
still many subjects needed me to understand it...
and the worst thing,
is the final exam just around the corner...

morning,
planning go to pantai keracut with a gang of old frens,
but rain told us all the story,
we are keep on waiting for the stoppage time,
but at last our plan is floated by rain...

its been non-stop raining for 2 days,
the giant monster heavy big rain keep on falling without hestitate,
the rainfall of these 2 days is nearly equal the amount of whole year rainfall,
and there are many places been floated already..

KOMTAR,
just nearby my house,
but now i cant even felt it existence,
it already been fully covered by the cloud...
it just like magic,
60floors building can suddenly become nothing in my view...

its all blur view,
just like my mood now...
in front of my eyes all blur...
inside my brain all blur...
nothing i can really do now beside let myself keep on "blurring"...

lately,
i become more and more addicted to music...
its the feel totally different like before,
i kenot even pull myself out of it...
slowly and slowly,
my study times a little bit a little bit overtaken by music times,
been replaced by a childhood's dream...

this is a blog which i dunno why i write for,
and a blog i have no idea to put any title of it,
maybe its been long time not updated already,
or...
is because of rain...
lead the feeling to this blog....

第一组

"趁脑海还有回忆, 记忆尚清晰时,
将画面锁在那一瞬间,
把情景封在那一段日子...



5/9/2008

因为"梦想" 这个表演, 而认识的一个朋友,
抱着好奇和想尝试的心情,
就酱被我说服加入了比赛,
也成了这一篇的序幕...



7/9/2008

无疑的,
一个绞尽脑汁的夜晚,
两人开始了备战的第一步 ----- 选歌
说来话长, 其实彼此都刚认识不久,
所以两人都未曾听过对方的歌声;
只因时间的紧促.
加上信任而投下的决定
因此, 即使有小虫在旁帮忙着,
可是, 还是难以抉择...



8/9/200 ~ 12/9/2008

"总要离开才发现,有一个人总习惯和爱中间,
因为每一天见面..."
不断不断地,
同样的旋律...一样的歌词...
一直在食堂顶楼响起...
充满了我们的回音..

第一次接触这首歌的她,
不畏一切的反复练习,
以至自己熟悉的一切...



13/9/2008

一首冷门的歌,
让我们尝尽了天堂地狱的心情...
它,
难度不高不底...
却需要极多的默契去呈现..

一演唱完这首歌,
被评审称赞,
整个心情达到了最高点,
踏出那扇门的那,
两人就像小孩般的在蹦蹦跳跳..

公布入围着的前一刻,
突发状况发生了...
负责人走进了等候室,
把我们和另一组叫了出去..

曾经以为这一类情景只发生在电视的比赛中...
却怎样想也想不到会落在我们身上...
因为完全同分,
所以需要进行pk...
高兴的心情此时此刻顿时消失..
赛后,
因为pk的重唱我们唱得比原本还差,
结果心情就直接跌入谷底...

最后,
我们两组还是一起进了...
因为评审很难割舍...
所以就给我们两组一个机会...

虽然我们都知道是很侥幸才能进入,
却还是遮掩不了开心的笑容.
一整天心就犹如 Sin graph 般的起起落落...



14/9/2008

头痛的一刻又来临了,
选歌又再次困扰了我们...
弄到了凌晨三点多,
才决定了它...



15/9/2008 ~ 19/9/2008

整个星期,
练习次数并没有比上一场来的多...
因为我...
在紧要关头喉咙却不听话...
严重沙亚了..
不止唱不了歌,
就连说话也难...

看着伙伴很努力的练习,
听着她重复的歌声,
总觉得自己好没用..
真的很担心如果比赛那天如果还是复原不了...
那么就真的很对不起她了...

短短几天,
我使劲发子好让自己康复,
从看医生,
吃不同的药...喝苦茶...喝中药...吃喉糖...
能试的我都试了...

倒数的第二天,
我们开始了密集的练习,
虽然无法发挥一百巴仙,
不过能发音就已经是回复中最好的证明了

对这次的比赛,
并没有抱任何希望,
只希望能表现得最好,
有个完美演出...



20/9/2008

我们做到了...
排练再排练,
成果已经验证了一切...

超高兴的一天,
虽然离三甲的水准差很远,
可是至少我们都知道我们表现的最好了...

第一次,
比赛演唱合唱歌...
第一次,
完全没有任何紧张...
第一次,
我很享受当下的舞台...

比赛成果多我们而言已经没有意义了,
因为我们重中学习了太多的东西,
也认识了许多朋友...

当一切都结束了之后,
为了保护喉痛而忍了一个星期的食欲终于解禁了...
我们都不约而同的到kfc宵夜...
餐后却因为学校大门已锁,
结果得绕远路回去...
=.=



赛后语

谢谢寅杰,振宇和一些游子吟朋友的帮忙...你们让我学到了很多东西,丰富了我的经验..
还有,
谢谢你伙伴,
因为你我们的演出才成功...
因为你的坚持才让整个比赛有了意义...












我的伙伴和一群爱唱歌的好友...


今后各都将为不同事务而忙了...
以后open gym 就再听不到我们练歌的声音了哦...

^^


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While my memory still lasting,
while my mind still clear of it,
i try to lock down the scene,
and pulling myself back to the scene once again...



5/9/2008

a song "dream" which perform by my group,
had let me know many new frens,
due to curious,
fren easily been persuade by me to join the competition,
and there is where the story begin...



7/9/2008

no doubt,
the nite had wrack our brain,
both of us starting with the hardest work ------ choosing song
actually both of us just knw each other ,
therefore we never heard each other vocal b4...
so,
even little bug at there try to help us,
bt.....
its still very hard for us to make any decision...



8/9/2008 ~ 12/9/2008

"总要离开才发现,有一个人总习惯和爱中间,
因为每一天见面..."

the song,
keep on repeating and repeating,
the same melody...same lyric...
non-stop soundin at the top of "restu" cafe,
and the air all fulfil with our vocal echo...

this is her 1st time listen to this song,
bt she stil do her best and try to keep on learning,
so that cn more familiar with the song...



13/9/2008

an unpopular song,
which choosen by me,
had let us walk through heaven and passby hell...
the difficulty of the song is still capable,
bt it needs a lots of practice and cooperate to perform...

after sang the song in the audition,
there is lots of happiness because been said nt bad by the judge,
jus after walk out from the door,
both of us non stop jumping happily lik a small child...

anyhow,
the sun will not always shine at there for us,
just before the finalist been announce,
the outbreak happenned...
committee came in and call out my team and another team...

i will never though tis will happen in myself,
its so familiar in the tv singing comp bt...
it really happenned...
due to same marks,
both team had to PK
after finish the PK period,
our mood straight fall into the deep deep dark hole...
because both of us knew that we did a bit badly than previous...

but in the end,
both team oso went into final together...
cz is 2 hard 2 choosen by judge,
so that they willing 2 gv both team a chance...

although we knew that we are lucky to went into final,
but it still cant stop our smile and our joy...
whole day our mood really just lik a Sin Graph...
up and down from start till the end...



14/9/2008

its a headache day again,
song decision had once again preplex us...
it cause us so much time until midnite 3smth oni decide it...



15/9/2008 ~ 19/9/2008

this really the harder week i suffer...
after the audition,
my voice had totally changed,
my throat had seriously "sick"
not just cant sing,
even talking oso will cause a lots of pain...
and it mk us hav to cut down or practice...

my partner was so serious and very hardworking on practicing by her own,
everytime saw her practice...listen to her repeatly,
just felt that i m so useless at there...
i was so worried that i cant recover in time for the final...
it was not oni i will felt sorry to myself...bt...for her oso

this few days,
i had try my best to let myself recover,
from visit the doc...eat pill...put medicine on throat...drink "kucha"...tk chinese medicine...eat strepsil....
watever ways i felt gt help also tried...

countdown : 2 days b4...
we started practicing harder,
although i cant perform 100precent lik usual,
bt atleast fianlly i cn sound out d...

about the comp,
i really din hope to achieve anythings,
just hope that we cn do our best,
hv a nice perform...



20/9/2008

that is the day,
we did it....
after rehearsal n rehearsal by ourself,
result had proven all...

it really a very happy day for me,
although at last we cant even reach top 3,
but we knew that we already gave our best...

1st time,
singing duel song in competition...
1st time,
perform it without any nervous...
1st time,
i was so enjoy the stage...

above all of that,
the comp results already bocme meaningless for us,
we gained too much from it already,
and met many new frens...

when the crowds were gone,
stage was closed,
lights were shut,
we tk our supper at kfc...
after 1 long hard week for controling food tking due to sore throat,
the KFC suddenly tasty than b4...



* PS *

thx yin jie,zhen yu and many you zhi yin senior and frens...
you guys teach me a lots ,i gt grow up from there...
and gain experience from it...

bsides,
thx you ya partner,
cz of you our perform only will be success...
cz of your perserve the perform only turn meaningful...












my comp. partner and frens...


after this,
all of us will busy ourselves in other different field and activity already,
and,
open gym will not hv our practice vocal again...
Good luck to all ya

^^

忙里偷闲

这几天都不知怎么了。。。
头一直都很痛。。。
睡不够也痛，
睡够也痛。。。。
吃饱也痛，
饿时更痛。。。
而且眼睛也一直很荤，
根本没有心上课，
没有心读书，
功课和练习都停了很久完全没有进展。。。
总觉得好像快要生病了得感觉，
可是还得坚持住，
至少让我度过了这两个星期再病吧

连续忙碌的星期，
让我有很多心情和感想想发表也只能搁置一旁。。。
再过几天再上传一些还没发表的近况吧。。。

头又再痛了。。。。

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Dunno what happen these few days,
headache always surrounding me,
lack of sleep oso headache;
sleep well oso headache...
stomach full head still pain;
hungry head more pain...
sumore eyes always felt sleepy,
totally cant concentrate in class,
no mood 2 study oso,
forcing my assignment n projects no improvement at all...

felt that myself wanna sick already ,
but still hv to force myself overcome it,
atleast must make it through tis 2 weeks 1st...

due to busy weeks ,
lots of feel n story also no chance to bloggin,
hope that few days later i can hv the chance to post up some news around me for the pass few weeks...

OMG !!!
headache again.....

国庆夜

已经忘了要写什么了,
一个星期没有上传的部落格,
想要写些什么,
却不知从何下笔...

听了些故事,
看了些心情;
听了些音乐,
看了些电视;
凌晨三点了....
还是决定下线了...

重整了情绪,

有人,
为了自己的利益不顾一切,
设下了圈套骗了上百个人...
有人,
在想见的时候见不到想见的人,
只能把心愿留给未知的明天...
有人,
在寂寞孤独的夜想出外散散心,
却被车匙没电而乖乖呆在家整夜...
有人,
为她msn连接不好而懊恼,
无缘无故的短线影响了她心情...
有人,
为她的故事找聆听者,
希望能信任的听众此时此刻出现...

国庆的一天,
和以往一样,
我还是置身之外,
看着窗外的烟火,
还是一样的耀眼...
可是今晚人们的心情,
却给这闪亮火花蒙了一层黑暗...

伴着音乐,
今晚又是熬夜的一晚...
已经连续性的严重熬夜了,
整个人有点游魂的感觉,
意志却顽强的要写完这篇心情...


ps* 谢谢有送我礼物或是和送我生日歌的朋友哦... yling,steph,rachel,alex,小明,......etc..谢谢你们哦 ^^


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It had been week since my last post,
the blog,
start becoming so strange to me,
there is words to write,
but there is no way to start...

tonight,
i heard some real story,
i seen some frame of mind;
i heard some music,
with the tv programmes...

Time clocking down fastly,
3am aproaching sooner,
finally decided 2 off9....
and re-packed all the mood and feels...

there is someone,
cz of own benifits and selfishly,
make a hole and let hundred and more peaple jump inside...

there is someone,
cant see somebody he wan to see when he is so desperate to do so,
only can leave the desire to the unknown tomorrow...

there is someone,
lies between loneliness and solitary at nite,
due to the outcome of car key no battery...

there is someone,
headache and fed up with her msn,
the unreasonable bad line had influence her mood whole nite...

there is someone,
finding a listener for her own story,
and hopefully there will be trustworthly audience at there for her....

31 of august,
just as usual,
is Merdeka day,
just as usual,
there is still no events for me at so memorable day,
just as usual,
the fireworks still so dazzle...
there is an only unusual tonight,
the bad mood and feel of people,
had cover up the shine firecracker with a layer of dark...

With music on my side,
tonight...still stay up late,
it already had been many continuous days,
never had a nicely early sleeping time,
Blur blur in my closing eyes,
at last also lose to my tenacious will,which want me to finish off this feeling blog.


ps* thx u all for those wh had gift me present or present me with bday songs...yling,steph,rachel,alex,xiao ming.....etc.....thx u all o ^^

"星"辰 贰

在一个睡不到三小时的凌晨,
思想还在为昨晚的数学而懊恼,
对一个当惯夜猫族的我,
要早睡早醒还真的有些难度...

幸好,
有人愿意四点半把我挖醒,
为了实现N天前的约定,
最后还是带着一双熊猫眼出门了...















可惜老天不做美,
让雨的旋律一直在播放...
星星...
因为怕冷而躲起来了...
日出...
也被乌云批上衣服了...
雨...
一直哭个不停...
海水...
也一直随着雨咆哮着...

所有的计划都被撤消,
所有的期待都被熄灭,
剩下的...
就只有两颗失落的心...

虽然如此,
一份突如其来的礼物却点亮了心情,
那...
是一份我收过最特别的礼物...
它,
不昂贵...
也不漂亮...
只是,
就是喜欢它说不出的特别 ^^







































写下的笔迹,
许下的心愿,
是否...
会随海漂流到达实现的那一天呢??

看着它越走越远,
我不懂...
靠岸的旅程还有多久,
也不懂停泊的港口还有多远,
只希望,
它能帮我把快乐和祝福送往每个经过的角落...
















ps * 谢谢早上陪我的小虫, 虽然那木板还是那么的可怕...


这次的假期,
很遗憾的没法和许多朋友聚会,
尤其是淑容妈咪和恩旋爸彼...
却依然收到他们的祝福和礼物...
谢谢你们哦...
我正需要它 ^^


















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Last nite only slept around 3 hours,
while all my mind still thinking of last nite maths,
and for a nite cat like me,
wanted to wake up at 4.30am really is a tough mission...

Luckily,
my fren willing to wake me up at d morning.
To achieve my promises N days ago,
at last i went out with my panda eyes @_@
















When there is a wish,
There always a hurdle...
the melody of rain keeps playing non-stop...
Stars...
started to feel cold and hided...
Sunrise...
also been clothed by the black clouds...
Rain...
crying without any reason...
and the Sea...
also follow the rain roaring...

All the plans had to be cancel,
all the expectation had been extinguish,
and the two disappointed heart,
is what had left for us..

The time pass by,
the surprise present comes and lighted the feeling,
that...
is a special present i had ever receive...
It nt expensive,
it also not so pretty as well,
just,
i like it and the special is hard to voice out...







































The written words,
the wishing made,
izzit...
can carried by the sea until the day it comes true??

With the help of the sea,
It goes more far from time to time,
i dunno...
tat its journey will lasts how long,
i not sure....
tat its harbor still how far to reach,
just...hoped that,
it will help me bring the happiness and blessing to all the places it went through...
















ps* thx for that bug that accompany me at the morning,althought that plank are so scary



this holiday will end soon,
there is a regret in it that many frens cant gather around,
especially shu rong mummy and eng shyuan pappy...
but i had received their warmest regards and present...
thx u guys
i really nid it ^^

"星"辰

19/8/2008

纳闷的假期,
如常的迟醒;
一样的早上,
相同的地点;
坐在电脑前的我,
仍在探索吉他的奥妙,
唯一和昨天不一样的...
就只有少了孤单的雨...

不过,
当太阳快要下山的那一刻,
我重见光明的时刻也来了...

一辆小小的克力杀,
6707的幸运号码,
不仅把我从无聊的黑洞中救起,
而且,
还把我载到熟悉的老地方...

距离上一次踏进,
已经好久好久了,
五个人,
拿了比较大的房间,
以久违的心情,
开始了今晚的故事...

红盒子的歌还是如常的有加新,
水还是那么的普通,
蛋糕还是一样那么可口... ^^
只是今晚的自助餐意外的比以往好吃...

由于配合奥林匹克,
红盒子的夜游戏也提早开始了,
幸运的朋友,
还得了三个小小的礼物...

华山论"喉"了几个小时后,
影幕的歌曲突然被关掉了...
再还没来得及回过神来的那一秒,
蛋糕已慢慢的出现在眼前,
生日歌也已在空气盘旋了...


















此时此刻,
除了感动...
还是感动...












































今年...
比预料中早..
却比预料中开心...

谢谢你们八小时的歌喉和礼物哦...
我都很喜欢 ^^
谢谢哦...

ps* 真正的生日日期还没到噢...


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19/8/2008

Still the same bore holiday,
still wake up late as usual,
the same room again in the same morning...
There is same laptop in front of me,
which trying to access the journey to the guitar world...
All yesterday scene continue shown today,
the only thing that left behind,
is the sadness rain...

But,
when the sunset,
its totally a brand new day for me..

Kelisa is coming,
with the lucky number 6707,
It not only save me from the dark bored hole,
and also drive me to the most familiar place...


Its been long long time ago since last time visit here,
and after taken a bigger room,
with the same five people,
the story of night finally start,
with all hold different feeling...

Redbox's song still updates as usual,
Drinks still normal as last time,
Cakes still so delicious among all,
and,
the buffet tonight are surprisingly nicer than all time...

Due to olympic fever at the moment,
the games inside redbox had started earlier,
which oftenly only held at late night...
my fren,
with the lucky shine all around,
had won 3 small prizes...

After few hours later,
the screen inside room suddenly been cut off,
while i still wondering what had happen,
the cake already brought in without any hesitated,
the bday song clearly fulfil all the spaces between the air...
















The moments,
The feels,
beside touch...
still touch...













































this year,
is earlier than expected...
but is more happy than expected...

thx u guys for all the things,
no matter yours eight hours voice inside the room,
or yours presents,
I really appreciate and like it...
thx o..
^^

ps* real bday still have week to go...

雨的心情

假期的第四天,
在家也第四天...

我的假期到底怎么了,
以往一直在假期外出的时期,
如今却懒惰动了...

原本今天打算要去和以前公司的同事用午餐的,
可是,
一场浩大的倾盆大雨不止把这午餐给吹走,
而且,
还阻止了原本打算去探营的我...














已经好几个星期没有风雨交加过了,
今天的这一切都来得那么突然..
没有前兆的大雨,
仿佛...
告诉我...
要我继续呆在家里...

灰色的天空,
连绵不断的雨;
冷淡的街,
寥寥无几的行人;
安静的小路,
还有一成不变的老屋...
好像,
已经过了很久,
我没向窗外眺望了....

"听雨的声音,
像悲伤的歌曲,
滂沱大雨竟如此的孤寂...
我陪雨哭泣雨却还不肯停
寂寞的人才懂雨的心情
雨反复唱着熟悉旋律
用悲伤的情绪
听雨的声音仿佛谁在哭泣..."

这首歌...
这旋律...
仿佛成为了最好的背景音乐...

悲伤的雨,
是否
在哭过了以后,
一切都会天晴呢...
悲伤的心情,
是否
在事过境迁后,
记忆就会模糊呢...

雨...
何时才停...
伤...
何时能痊愈...

没有人,
能有答案...

是彩虹...
因为它的出现,
雨...
显得有意义...
也因为雨的悲,
衬托了彩虹的美...

曾受过的伤,
请别怕去跨越...
因为,
在雨后
总会有一道最美的彩虹..
在为你守候着..
等待为你划出另一道更美丽的风景..

朋友,
你
看见彩虹了吗??





















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today,
is the 4th day of my school holiday...
and,
is also my 4th days stay at house..

i dunno what had happen to my holiday,
or maybe myself,
always hanging out in the past while holiday,
but now...
become more lazier n lazier...

originally plan to go out have a lunch with my x-colleague today,
but at last,
rain told me everythings...
it not only block me for my lunch,
and also make me cant go to visit my x-society camp..














Its been long time since last heavy rain occured,
and it just comes so sudden,
without any omen...
seems like it wanna stay at home today again..

With the rain falling non-stop,
the sky is so grey,
and it already started become more and more towards black...
the amount of pedestrian,
had make the road become silence...
and the old houses,
are all stay same as the past with the raindrops..
I realise that,
already long long time I did not take the view from the my windows...

"听雨的声音,
像悲伤的歌曲,
滂沱大雨竟如此的孤寂...
我陪雨哭泣雨却还不肯停
寂寞的人才懂雨的心情
雨反复唱着熟悉旋律
用悲伤的情绪
听雨的声音仿佛谁在哭泣..."

the song...
the music...
already become background music without any sense..

the sadness rain,
crying non stop since morning...
izzit..
after the wind and rain,
there would be a brand new day....??

the broken heart,
izzit..
with the time passing through,
memory will become fuzzy....??

rain...
when only can stop...
pain...
when only can recover...

no one,
got the answer...


Is rainbow...
with the appear of rainbow,
rain..
become meaningful..
oppositely,
because sadness of the rain,
rainbow become prettier...

The pain gainned,
The damaged heart,
pls dont be afraid to overcome it..
because,
there will be rainbow after rain,
it always there for you..
waiting you to draw another nice sceney...

frens,
there is a rainbow...
did you saw it ??
=)

太多的太多

想学的东西太多了, 可是资金却少的可怜;
学习的机会太多了, 可是时间却隔阻了一切;
功课也越来越多了, 可是会解答的却越来越少;
教课越来越远了, 可是记忆却还在原地踏步...

最近,
想做的东西实在太多了,

我想要读书, 好让自己能应付即将要来临的考试,
不让一个学期的烂成绩拖累了以后的总平均;

我想要学游泳, 好让自己多一个娱乐,
毕竟学了总不会白费的,
而且如今天时地利人和,
有好的设备及朋友的教导,
不学就太不应该了;

我想要练乒乓, 好让自己有机会MASUM,
加上乒乓是我一直以来的较在行的运动,
荒废了简直就是对不起过去的努力与汗水;

我想要加入歌唱, 让自己有贡献的余地,
毕竟爱好永远都无法割舍的;

我想要假如游子吟, 好让自己有机会学习乐器,
梦想有一天自弹自唱的自己,
再没机会接触的童年,
二十岁的我再不学就太迟了;

我想要谈恋爱, 单身了那么久了,
加上看了紫色苹果园的文章,
再怎样也不是那么好受吧...

很多很多...
想做的事情都堆满了脑海...
纵然如此,
可是,
我始终还看不到通往完成的那一段路...

30 / 7 / 2008

大学校园里 第二度下笔
却与首次的感觉天渊之别
疯狂的欢笑 结群的游伴
顿时间飞逝而去
换来的
却是繁重的课业
释重的功课 深奥的数学
已渐渐地把我逼的透不过气来
或许并非不是我的成绩不够好
而
只是在一个属于强者的场所里
压力无形间的形成在最差的那个我
或许
放松一点会比较好吧
但
我无法想象一旦松解开了以后
我还有没有能力去追回
所以
才一直努力不懈
不让自己有第二次后悔的机会

一直想拥有的校园生活
一直想要体验的生涯
原来
并非犹如脑海般里的画面
也并非如外人看到的简单
只是
我从不后悔我做的选择
因为
这将是一种新生活 新挑战
但一切再次从零开始
没有人在乎我的过去
新一页的里程碑将从中下笔

只是
在空旷的房间 宁静的四周
安静夜晚的陪同下
孤单赤裸裸的浮现
而
当夜光打在回家的背影上
寂寞更是无处可躲
回家的路上
只有星星 在远远的外太空不嫌弃的伴着我...

大学的朋友 可多可少
认识的 不算少
能交谈的 不算多
也有一些在利益与友情间找不到平衡点
或许我太容易相信人了
或许我太不懂防备了
又或许...他们的演技太好了吧
走了越远
看了越多不希望看到的
听了更多...

以前的朋友 不多不少
认识的 不算多
还保持联络的 不算少
只是一些朋友们
因为发生了小小的插曲
像断了线的风筝
永远只成为了生命中的过客...

朋友,
当你在读着这篇心情日记
或许某年某月某一天
你可能会成了其中一个过客
不过关希望这一天永远都不会到来
因为
你...
是我永远的朋友...

14 / 7 / 2008

转眼间,离职也已经快一个月了,
回过头,才发现自己怀念的,舍不得的,仍然还是那么多...

还记得在未进入大学前和朋友们为了大学文件和资料四处奔波的那一段短暂的日子,
如今却成为了难忘的回忆了.

好朋友们都个奔西东了,
有的在吉隆坡,有的在吉打,
有的留在槟城,而有的却去了沙巴沙劳越...

orientation时听说很多朋友都病了,
而且捱的很辛苦,
而有的每天更睡不到三小时,
希望他们在开课时会好点吧...
幸好我的学校还蛮好的... ^^

开学第二个星期了,
还在尝试着适应这里的一切
新环境 新朋友 新方式 新生活
虽然认识了不少朋友,
可是,
却依然惦记曾并肩作战的那些,
因为,
再见面已不知何时了...
三年后,
我会变怎样...
从前的你们又会变得怎样...???
没有人知道答案...

希望距离不会疏远一切...


ps* 有星星的地方,就会有我的思念....